This was a poem I wrote after a couple of days recently where it snowed heavily. On both occasions our school closed and we reverted to remote learning from home. Sadly, I only stayed away from work on one of them. But more of that later.
I wanted to write about the sensation of a snowy day, rather than just pointing out lots of things that would be happening. I think there’s something still very special and almost magical about waking up to discover that there’s been snow and better still, it’s still there. Even as an adult, I still find it quite a captivating time and it definitely makes the place look a lot better, if only usually for about 24 hours. There can never be enough snowy landscape photos!
So, when you think about how beautiful the snow can make a place look, add in the anticipation as you notice that the sky is ‘full’ – because we’re all weather experts when it looks like it’ll snow – the sensation of the cold of a snow day – I always find it’s a different kind of cold when it’s snowed – it all makes for something very poetic. It was only right that I attempted something.
I found as I got part of the way through, that the notes I was writing from seemed to have a mixture of ideas; some about being a kid and others about being an adult in the snow. Two very different things! As a kid you just want to be out there without a care in the world, not feeling the cold or worrying about having any kind of accident. As an adult, I’m often completely on edge about the journey to work and getting stuck! So, I adapted as I wrote and ended up with a poem that contrasts those experiences instead of the one that I set out to write!
So here’s what I ended up with.
Snow Day
An eerie light creeps from outside. It seeps under the blinds and reaches out, grabs you attention. The first hint. Then through an opened window the glorious realisation, still the same rush as when you were a child. Snow. Today, you could be a child again. The yelping toddler and the carefree teenager all rolled into one glorious experience for an hour or a day. It doesn't matter. A blanket of white wraps round you and keeps you safe and secure, blocking out the strain of the everyday, of adulthood. Instead, you brace yourself, take crunching baby steps down the path, clear the joints bwween doors and doorframes, the freezing of a finger in vain as a sliver of snow slides onto the diver's seat. The first part of a treacherous journey will be spent fighting the cold from every angle so you pray to someone's god and just keep moving. You should be sledging, with the rush of a chill wind on your crimson cheeks, the daring of your youth flooding back as you race down the snow covered hill, clinging on for dear life, unable to control the smile and the happy noise that escapes. For a moment, you don't care about what happens between here and the well trodden flat at the bottom. Back in the real world you hunch over the wheel unable to take in the beauty of a landscape turned white by feathery flakes. Adrenalin coarses as you slide to the side and you let out a sigh at every stop. A warning light alerts you to approaching danger as you here an engine's struggles and set you sights on simply cresting the next wave. You wish it was possible to go back to the fearless child, whooping down that bank again, taking the shorter route left in a moment of doubt or, more likely, tackling the whole run, head on, all the way down the hill on a sheet of plastic bag, spinning, out of control until you stop, trudge back, delirious and dice with death time and time again. But, in the furroughed brow of the here and now, fun seems an eternity away as you fight against the same roads as every other day your heart beating, like someone pressed a button that changed the level on the video game and every bend and hill mus be aproached with a caution never seen before. That front door will never look so good again.
This was a very different poem to write. In terms of how it looked on the page of my notebook, it was like something I do at work. Lots of snippets of lines, bullet points, snatches of poem written wherever I could fit them and arrows joining some if not all of it together.
As I wrote it I changed my mind on what it was going to be and as I stated above, I included some stanzas about adulthood. However, I only had two half formed ‘adult’ experiences down at that point so had to write more and try and form a logical kind of ‘narrative’ as I wrote. In that way, it was a really tricky poem to write. I hope it doesn’t sound too cobbled together!
The whole adult experience with snow was summed up in January this year when one journey home from work in the snow ended up taking over six hours. So, I suppose it’s a good thing that the poem reflects this side of things too and the dread that snow can bring nowadays.
One other thing to point out is that I deliberately tried to include lots of sibilance and enjambment in there. The sibilance was there to try and replicate the sounds of sledging (there I go again!), the hissing and swishing of the plastic against the snow. The enjambment was there to pick up pace as I wanted to get across the recklessness of sledging as a child and the speed that you would pick up as you went down a hill. I hope that doesn’t sound too pretentious, but I wanted to at least explain what I was trying to do!
As ever, I’d love to hear what people thought, so feel free to let me know in the comments.